Worry

Mar 31, 2017

Like a bad omen, I sat and drank that glucose drink. It was impossible not to remember with every sip that this was what one of my best friends was doing only weeks ago when she found out at a routine appointment that she had miscarried. I drank and smiled and chatted with the doctor, all while feeling silently horrified at the idea of some kind of superstition taking over. Continue reading

There is no point to this post

Mar 30, 2017

I woke up in a hurry, which rarely happens these days. I had made an appointment for an oil change on my car at 9am, so when Bryan and the kids woke me up at 8:45am to say family prayers before Olivia went off to school, it was go time. Luckily the oil change place was close by and it all worked out, but eating only a banana and a pear for breakfast and staring at what Bryan referred to as my “yearly allotment of live television” just didn’t cut it.  Continue reading

Blessings of babysitting I guess

Mar 29, 2017

Bryan’s cousin came over this morning with her little boy who’s about the same age as Felix. She had an eye appointment with Bryan so I offered to watch her son while she went. The boys played great and were chill and it wasn’t a big deal. What is a big deal is how much cleaner my house is and how productive I was this morning because of it.  Continue reading

Some things I did today

Mar 28, 2017

  • ordered over $60 of wool felt
  • read a good friend’s essay about adoption
  • exchanged a shirt I bought at old navy
  • left mutual early because it smelled so bad
  • finished watching the first season of glee
  • didn’t feel all that interested in watching the second season of glee
  • simultaneously def missed west wing and its superior writing
  • threw up this morning
  • got toothpaste on a new shirt but luckily the shirt was black
  • brushed my teeth twice
  • brushed my hair zero times
  • got a rude eye roll vibe from some sixteen year old boys
  • was the only driver in the d.c. area going the speed limit
  • laid on the couch for over an hour this morning
  • ate a nectarine for breakfast
  • and a pear for lunch
  • just forgot how to spell pear and had to google pair vs. pare only to realize it was neither
  • gave olivia four hair buns for crazy hair day
  • ate a cookies and cream milkshake from chick fil a

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Marginally less grumpy

Mar 27, 2017

Sometimes pouting vocalizes our feelings enough that we realize what we need. In my case it was more maternity clothes that fit (I was down to only a few things–like, literally only a few) and some freedom to move forward on the quiet page patterns and kits I’ve been working on. I won’t get into it all, but I will say that I found some maternity capri jeans and some modest maternity shorts and some more modest comfy t-shirts and that, combined with a few other things, gave me more than just a retail therapy pick-me-up. It wasn’t just buying things, it was knowing that I can look and feel a little better and more comfortable, which I’m super grateful for.  Continue reading

Truest

Mar 26, 2017

I put off writing today, hoping I’d be struck by a good mood and have something not whiney to say. And while there were genuinely good parts of the day and countless blessings to be grateful for, the fact of the matter is that things have been hard lately and I don’t feel super chipper about it. I did my best to play it off and be funny about it yesterday, but it was a hard evening. Continue reading

Maybe tomorrow

Mar 24, 2017

Blahbity blah blah. I had stuff I was going to write about but then I came home from a service activity with the young women and it was great but I was ready to just lay on the couch and not do anything and now I don’t feel like writing, but I made a goal so here I am.  Continue reading

Slow and steady

Mar 23, 2017

The gravitational pull of the couch has been strong lately. I’ve just been feeling pregnant and gross and tired and not up for doing much. But today (after a two hour nap this morning) I finally got some fresh fruit and veggies in my body and then got some solid work done on the quiet page patterns I’ve been developing. Continue reading